终于把美猪从鬼门关前拉回来了
看着他吃鸡肉，舔嘴巴，然后跑到脚垫上磨爪子，仿佛一切回到了以前的样子——只是脑袋上多了一根管子
三个星期的操劳终于没有白费，美猪的胆红素有所下降，肌苷也恢复正常，意味着他的肝脏功能有所好转，肾脏已经基本恢复正常，接下来就是每天打针灌药等他恢复正常了
这个月因为他的病把当月工资花得干干净净，工作也耽误了不少，不过没算白干，救猫一命胜涨七级工资，hoho
不过还没完哪，接下来的药每天也得一百块，这个小王八蛋赶紧恢复正常吧，老子从小到大看的病，算上仅有的两次手术——一次差点要了命的车祸，还有割包皮——也没花过这么多钱
养只猫负担都这么沉重，可预见的将来我是不打算养孩子了

如果世界上还有什么事情比加班还令人烦躁沮丧那就是照顾一个慢性病患者，而比照顾一个慢性病患者还令人气馁的事情则是照顾一个不肯配合的慢性病患者。今天灌食的时候看着被骑在身下仍然摇头摆尾不放弃挣扎努力的美猪，我终于忍不住狂怒了。在威胁将他安乐死无效之后，我只好把他抓起来一顿猛揍。每天跟他较劲要花五六个小时一两百块钱，这个小畜牲已经把我逼到崩溃的边缘了。我简直无法想象我的亲人是如何把我抚养长大的——我显然比一只猫更令人头疼。我原来以为世界上最讨厌的生物是3-8岁的小孩，现在要补充一种：仍然病危但是恢复了体力的肥猫。

美猪可怜的小胳膊终于不用再被扎得全是窟窿了，也可以强制喂食一些流质食物了。

鼻饲管被缝合在了脑门上（听起来好疼），向上竖着，让美猪看起来像是辆能涉水过河的SUV. 医生说，这猫真配合，连缝针都不闹，命不该绝啊。听着真让人高兴！现在不仅可以输液维持，也可以强制灌食肝病处方粮了——这玩意还是巧克力味的，很像小时候喝的麦乳精。留滞针也是个好东西呀，终于不用握着他胳膊一动不动聚精会神坐六个小时了，等着输液的功夫抽空写完了免签支付的需求，hoho. 熬到一点多，美猪终于要尿尿了，连忙端上猫沙盆——好大的一泡。。。回家睡个小觉先，三点再去接他，phew...

美猪加油！谢谢所有关心他的同事和朋友们！

so much things need to be done, my work, my cat, renting my apartment, dealing with real estate matters... all things come together, i doubt if i could do these by my own hands. i feel so helpless...

 

i never thought that love is so painful, even to an ordinary cat. my heart break into pieces when  watching him dying. i'd rather take his illness to make him healthy, or i could give my 5 years of life to him. i can't explain why i care a cat that much, maybe i just want to give, to sacrifice, to love...

 

last night you called me, i appreciate that, but one thing made me disappointed is that you didn't ask about his situation. you don't care about him, you simply got through and left the kitties and me behind. i don't know how hard is it for you to do this, but i know you did. i can't blame you, you did the right thing. i used to read old classic books when i was a little boy, the heroes and heroines die for breaking apart. i think i read the wrong books, they gave me such a deep influence that i never realized one day i became one of them.

 

i'll take meizhu back into hospital for a check this early morning, hope things get better. if belief not only comforts people but also works, i would pick up one and be a truely devout follower. dear god, think about my suggestion please.

it seems that he got sort of hepatitis, doc said it's very dangerous

i couldn't help crying in bathroom last night

it's all my fault, if i was not that careless...

sigh

i'll go to nongda this morning, hope that the docs there would be more professional

come with me meizhu plz, don't leave me alone

we used to be a happy family......

 

you said that i'm strong and i'll be fine, but i'm not as strong as you thought

anyone in this world could help me plz...